I often have vivid dreams. This morning's was so profound, I'm still thinking about it. It was about friendship, how some people can be fake--you think they are "for you" but they are secretly cheering when you are down or hurt. Two people were having a conversation with me in my dream and they revealed... Continue Reading →
Last year I decided to follow up on a long term goal. I wanted to fully run or jog a 5K. This may not seem like much, but I set the goal when I was 130 pounds OVER a healthy weight. And I had stopped running. When I left the military in 1992, running became... Continue Reading →
It's getting hot. That's not unusual for Sacramento at this time of year. But a pandemic, a stay at home order, and the closing of all public and municipal swimming pools is. With the extension of a county stay at home order until May 22, and an expected "no beach" order to hit on May... Continue Reading →
Photo taken by Ursula in March 2018 This week is going to (and already has started off as) a tough week of memories as we approach the first year anniversary of unspeakable tragedy. There are so many people who impressed me forever with their bravery and resilience. I will acknowledge them here, whether they ever... Continue Reading →
"I can’t bear it. But I do. And I think wildly about the headlines to come. Paradise Lost. Paradise is burning." Josh Edelson / AFP / Getty I can't bear to look at it, but I look anyway. I can’t bear to feel it, but I feel it anyway. I can’t bear the thick grey... Continue Reading →
Happy Birthday U.S. Marine Corps. How fricking ironic. A few days ago, a Marine veteran was in the news. Not for a heroic act. He was probably a hell of a good marine, trained on tactics, how to shoot, how to kill. How to remain stone cold calm while snuffing out the lives of enemies,... Continue Reading →
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